the one that i inbox you

Friday, December 31, 2010

what ican say is sorry that i loved you...this is all i think about you...

41, hey this is special for you…I purposely wait till the last oni I post about you…you told me you scared to see smtg bad or sad over here…no it won’t happen…eh my meteor wish quite true right?finally ure wish came true dy…it’s a good news for you but bad news for me…actually can I like dun want stop contacting with you?can you like chat with me everyday just like last time even though just half an hour?you knw?u care bout ure mama,sayang ure didi,respect ure gor gor always make me feel tat u are a good guy tat almost distinct in this world?hahaha nah u should feel happy…rmb hw we knw each other?actually I dunno lor,but im sure nt from facebook coz tat time I still nt so active in facebook…we used to tell each other secret and share our feelings…u always help me when I need help,chat with me when I feel bored,cheer me up when I’m emo…actually we very friend one lor…I used to knw all the things happened on you BUT this few weeks dunno why you keep going away from me…is tat I do smtg wrong or wat?i did asked you but u refuse to tell me… I’m soo sorry if is…I start to dunno wat is happening around you coz you didn’t tell me anymore…I knw my childishness and small gas always make u angry but but but I knw hw to say sorry right? Sorry la I just can’t control my bad temper mar…I already changed a lot right?and eh I always say I hate you but actually not lor…I just say tat for fun…I knw u knw tat im playful right? So you I knw won’t mind one…last year’s today you send a fireworks video coz I didn’t go out for countdown…this year will I receive ure video again?perhaps I will receive it…tat video is nw still in my hp…I keep it baik baik de leh…I rmb 1st of july means my bday,you draw me a cake…I damn happy you knw?and we chat from kl to ipoh…you are the 1st and the last person who wished me…the most happy time is when u are in NS,every Friday sat and Sunday we sure have a very very very long phone chat punya…long time didn’t phone chat with you edi…before your school reopen can I have a long phone chat with you?this is the reason why I asked u why don’t u reload hot ticket…u didn’t spend ure talktime on me edi…u let ure mama and didi finish it jor…get ure English result dy rmb tell me wor…im happy tat ure BM can pass lor seriously…hahaha I rmb u draw me food in msn,,,so nice wei…bt dun hv this chance dy…maybe im irritating for u…im sorry to disturb u all along the time…I knw u hate when I say “sorry for the disturb,go do ure things la” or “fuhin me” hahahaha I did changed…I didn’t say fu hin edi…and many many others memories tat I didn’t type out coz oni this few already dunno hw many thousand words jor…hahaha do take care ureself coz u always fall sick de…all the best in ure future and find me whenever u face problem kay? I hope to receive an inox msg from u to answer me all of tat…(:
是真的最后一天了吗???是真的不能联络了吗???有必要这样吗???我喜欢你,你懂吗???我是时候要接受现实了...对不起我一直以来打扰你了...要我放下你真的有点困难...我不可能这么快好回...我需要时间...我希望其实你曾经对我有过跟我一样的感觉...我的心...痛了... ='(

所有的一切都变了...

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

所有的一切都变了...你不在是以前的你...我感觉到最近你很奇怪了...而我就越来越不懂你生活上发生了什么...你的talktime也不再是打给我了...都是给你的弟弟或妈妈用去了...距离变得很远很远了...可能是你感觉到我喜欢你了吧...我知道这一切总有结束的一天,因为你不曾为我心动过...我喜欢你也是单方面的罢了...可是勇德啊,既然你已经打算开学了就不再跟我联络那你可不可以抽出一个晚上的时间好像以前那样跟我聊久久的电话???

我们已经比陌生人更加陌生了...

Monday, December 27, 2010

我们已经比陌生人更加陌生了...是因为你feel到了吗???是因为你要疏远我吗?
我是今天才知道你妈妈的车在25号时被撞...我在你心里就连那个讲心事的朋友也不是了对吗?我听了之后我不懂我还能给你任何的反应,只是随便敷衍两句罢了...对可能在你心理我并不是什么重要的人你跟不跟我讲是你的自由...可是在你跟本没有站在我的立场想过...我其实很在意你每一天所发生的事情...所以当我知道你没有告诉我是我是很很很很很生气...奇怪的是今天我为你哭的就只有那么的少...那是不是因为我已经开始学着放弃了???放弃你对我来说是一件很痛苦的事,你从来就不知道我的心有多痛...因为毕竟一年多了...我受尽了一年多的痛苦,是你让我知道爱情不需要豪华的,简简单单就好了...是你让我明白不需要看样子选对象的,是你让我知道了,有不有钱并不重要...我要谢谢你,谢谢你让我受尽痛苦而学回来的这一切...现在说什么都太迟了...只怪我自己没有那个胆量跟你说*我喜欢你了*...因为我知道我一旦说了出口我们就不再是朋友了...放弃吧...可是有谁能告诉我我要用多久时间才能完完全全的放下你?

merry christmas,how much i wish i could countdown with you :(

Saturday, December 25, 2010

MERRY CHRISTMAS yong dek ! how much i wish i could countdown with you...24/12/10 we didnt chat much...i miss you...you countdown with your brotherssss and i countdown with my babesssss...i'm so drunk!!! i need you NOW!!!!!!! i drunk...i drunk because of you...how will both of us be during next year's christmas??? no one knows...i just...just...just can't let you go...but what to do? your future is more important...i maked a wish to santa...but i know it won't comes true... *i wish that i can have the chance start the relationship with you* its just cheating myself...anyway,all the best in your future kay?you will always get wishes from man yee while actually my heart was full with sadness :'(

我又在等你回家了...

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

我又在等你回家了...其实有时候我真的觉得自己很傻...明知道和你是没有可能的...明知道等你回家是很多于的...可是到底是为什么?你还没回到家我的心就好像很担心酱...很笨吧???
其实我有少少的觉得上天很不公平...为什么它会让我喜欢上你?喜欢上一个自己知道不可能的人很难受,现在到了一月就连找都不能找是比难受还要难受一百倍...
今天能跟你哥哥的老婆聊天真的很开心,虽然只是聊了那一下...可是如果你把我的部落格继续读下去的话,你会看到其实我一直以来都很想跟你哥哥的老婆做朋友...是能聊心事的朋友...虽然我跟她就连朋友都不是,可是至少我有跟她聊过天...日子过得越来越快了...我也是时候慢慢的学会放手好让自己习惯一下没有你的日子了...为什么到了12月我是每天晚上都为你而哭?其实那是因为,我不舍得...不舍得这三个字狠狠的在我心里刮下了一刀,是我目前为止被刮的最痛的一刀...T^T

我还能听多久?

Monday, December 20, 2010

我现在是在meetoto听你唱歌来睡觉...你的声音我还能听多久????? T^T

我舍不得...

我舍不得...是不是每一件事都要来到 E.N.D 这个字呢?你快要去读书了...以前,你都会说"不会的,我去读书我们会聊更多的" 现在,你却说"不要讲这些了好吗?/不要再去想了"
你给我的感觉是你去读书了我们就不能再联络了...学校里美女多得是...我有的机会根本就是0.00001而已...我不想要这样...上天很不公平因为它明明知道我对你有好感,它明明知道我所有心事,它明明知道我喜欢你却不敢跟你讲,它明明知道我从来没有对一个人那么认真过...认真到我会为你家人着想,认真到我等流星等了好几个小时就是为了许下希望可以和你在一起的愿望,你跟你家人心想事成的愿望...我做任何东西都是以你为中心...可是为什么"它"就是不要给我机会跟你开始...反而要夺走我连跟你联络的机会...我其实很想让你知道我喜欢的不是你的钱,不是你的样子等等...而是你的心,你的人格...我其实这几天都是哭饱饱才睡觉的...我真的很舍不得...可是我能做什么?怎样讲都是你的前途比较重要...再舍不得也要放手...再舍不得也只能自己静静的躲在房间哭...刘勇德,你能明白我有多难受吗???因为这一切一切我都不能告诉你...我现在的眼泪是滴着的,眼睛是肿的,我的心是痛的,我的脑袋是要想尽办法把你放开...我其实有跟长胜讨论过你的生日...我其实有打算去为你庆祝生日...我其实有为你准备过生日礼物,可是现在看来我用不着了...是我自己多于去做这些东西罢了...因为你其实已经想着不再跟我联络了...T^T

我帮你向流星许了个愿

Friday, December 17, 2010

我帮你向流星许了个愿...哈哈...我等很久了你懂吗?为了你...值得的~

我想向流星许愿...

Thursday, December 16, 2010

其实我很坚持的跟你讲我要等流星...那是因为我有好几个愿望想要达成...我想跟你有机会开始哪怕只是试试看...我想帮你许你心想事成...我想许希望你的妈妈捡健康康...我要许希望你的家人想什么有什么...很傻对吧???你一定觉得你的家人与我无关为什么我要那么多事...不懂叻...就是想要帮你跟你的家人嘛...这是我喂一能帮你做的事...因为过后我们不会再有机会联络了...我希望你能好好珍惜这个愿望... =)

最难忍的一天

Friday, December 10, 2010

今天应该会是我难忍的一天吧?
你今天又要开始做工了...做工辛苦吗?记得要休息好好啊...很好啊...有上进心...我就是喜欢你这一点...会去做工赚钱,保护妈妈,疼弟弟,尊重哥哥...有哪里的一天你会尊重我吗?
知道你今天要6点多起床准备,7点多搭ktm去做工我刻意调闹钟在7.50AM起床,想要说可以在你搭ktm无聊时陪下你...哪里知道我会收到冷淡的回复?哈哈...我真是太傻了...多睡一下不就更好?哈哈...没关系吧,其实为了你我真的什么都没关系...
一整天不信息你,不打电话给你,看不到你上线...从来就没试过那么多个小时没有你的消息...我的心真的很不安...那种感受有多难受你能体会吗?能了解吗?我真的想象不到如果有一天我们完全不联络了...那时的我会变成什么样子呢??? ='(
很多次我很冲动的拿起电话想要找你了...可是想到你要做工不想打扰才会打消这个念头的...我一直等等等等等终于等到了你放工...我能体会你的辛苦...所以只敢跟你信息一两封然后再骗你,告诉你说我要起睡觉了...还有两天...其实我怕的不止那两天...我怕的是过了那两天你那些冷淡的对待还会是一样... =(

我很笨...

Thursday, December 9, 2010

其实讲真一句...我刚才是真的很生气的...第一,自己下午时已经不开心了...加上你硬硬要跟我吵...在你的回复里我觉得你也生气了...所以我就傻傻的跟你讲我只是在开玩笑...叫你不要生气我...傻傻的跟你讲对不起...傻傻的哄回你...对不起嘛...~
可是有时候你也应该站在我的立场想一下啊...我在你背后做酱多东西还不是因为你吗?
*我会去接近你的弟弟因为我想帮你照顾他...也想讨好他...
*我会问那么多关于你妈妈的东西因为我想尊重她...
*我时常问起你家人...(妈妈,弟弟,哥哥,大嫂甚至工人)是因为我知道在你心里家人对你来讲真的很重要...我也想要了解一下,讨好他们等等的...
*我会去跟你的朋友做朋友因为我想有什么事他们一定会照顾你...也是想要更了解你...
我会常常信息你是因为我怕你会被别人强走...>.<
也是因为我想你...
我不是真的要去吃你妈妈的醋...因为你常常陪着她...也不是要去吃你朋友的醋因为他们在你眼里比我还要重要...而是我觉得...你陪妈妈帮朋友是对的...只是就连给我的一封信息打给我的一通电话都那么难吗?真的忙到这个地步吗???可以多关心我吗???

i wish...i really wish

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

I wish I have the magic
To read through your mind
Know what you are thinking
No need to predict what is in your mind
No need to worry what are you thinking about

I wish I have power
To share the sadness of you
Reduce your nervous
No need to worry you will be alone when sad
No need to worry I’m not beside you when you are moody

I wish I have the ability
To give my help when you need
Able to decrease your work and hard
No need to worry works had overloaded you
No need to worry the tiredness you get from those work

I wish...I wish...I really wish
That only what I wish
I know the day will never come

Because
You will never turn back to find me
You will never know I’m the one who always push and support you behind
You will never know how much I Love You

迟睡的原因

Friday, December 3, 2010

喝茶喝茶...天天晚上都去喝茶...>.<
其实你每天讲我那么迟还不睡是有原因的...
你有发觉到每次你出去12点要是还没回到家你的电话就会响起了吗?当然一个是你的妈妈...令一个是我...我只不过是担心你罢了...哈哈...我如果很眼睡的话我会先睡觉然后set alarm大概大概的时间响...无非都是响知道你安全回到家而已...如果可以就聊一下再去睡觉...只是你不知道罢了...所以呢...现在的我要去睡觉了...等下闹钟响了再起床找你... :D

我不喜欢...

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

我不喜欢你玩meetoto...我不喜欢那些女生来hiao你...我不喜欢你听她们讲那些色色的东西...我不喜欢她们讲去kepong找你...我不喜欢她hiao你所以我叫很多很多朋友去玩meetoto..那是因为我要他们撑我...我不给她们hiao你...我会在meetoto里面骂她是因为我吃醋了...你玩是你的自由...做人是应该要放松可是她们hiao你是她们不对...你可以玩,可是有我的存在才去玩好吗??? T^T